The smile that conceals all

Healing is annoying me this time,
And I want to feel how it is,
When the conspiracy cannot be controlled,
And the red signs of low marks turn my face white.

I might smile and say everything is fine,
Because life is how it is,
My present day is all embroiled,
And kites of ambitions begin to stall and land turns dry.

It was my mistake all this while,
As you did dismiss,
With the illimitable sarcasm of your words that rolled,
Go today, I want you no more, I can no more smile.